Monday, May. 18, 2009 - 9:24 p.m.

it sux to sit there ALONE and stone for 4 hours straight. besides trips to the toilet. sigh. it sux to just know tt you are there for nth besides earning, which i dont feel right about.

okie i wasnt fair to say alone. i have occasionally 4 other people in the container with me. but they have their own things to do.

i asked for things to do but noone could give me anything. the manager wasnt around every hour tt i went to look for him.

they said two months is too short to learn anything as compared to the 6 months the other people have. *sigh* i resigned to fate. if thats what you think, then there is nothing i can do. i can only say thats how my school system works.

"why are you doing this i*tern then?" someone asked.
ya, why? i thought to myself. but i cant get myself out of this. i may just, if not for my reputation, the school reputation, responsibilities etc.

the thing that amuses me is that the people in my room knows exactly what to do and check and how the whole program goes. im impressed. maybe they have been in this for very long. i wish i knew.

somehow it made me ponder. my course touched and went for most of the topics but not totally in depth. and thats exactly what i told the senior manager. and he agreed that basically we learnt theories and abit here and there. he also mentioned that maybe when we go out and work, people may think, are we up to the task anot? coz we dont really know in depth.

ya so are we really up the task or not? or maybe we ARE supposed to learn as we go.

maybe. just maybe. tell me im right at where im now. tell me im doing fine.

i shall endure..as my mum puts it, its just for the sake of a cert.

uh huh. and i gotta work on sat. is that GOOD news?

i wish miracle happen tml or sth so that my fren will come and accompany me tml. LOL. ya miracle..

i shall endure. at least i brought a book along with me tml.

endure.

^s0rr|

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