Monday, May. 25, 2009 - 3:11 p.m.

to whom it may concern.

dont make it sound as if i dint try hard enough. dont make it sound like i have myself to blame. dont make it sound as if i have not been pestering them hard enough.

u should know me well enough. i HATE to be a burden to anyone. i think i can jolly well live my life well enough without being a hindrance. i asked. once. i asked TWICE. hey, what am i supposed to say when i am already told to observe? can i/should i go and ask again for work to do? should i bother them again? do i sound like i dint try hard enough?

i know there are loads for me to learn. dont make it sound as if im sitting there waiting to be spoonfed. i did saw. i did observed. but i ran out of qtns to ask. or am i not looking at the picture big enough? im not even blaming anyone. i reflect on myself too.

i wish i was part of the whole team. i feel dispenable enough for me to take half day off thanks to a headache. if it was a year ago, i doubt i would have done that.

i learnt of coz. to see things in textbook alive and physical in front of me. yes i enjoyed the experience. i wonder if the issue of confidentially applies to us. maybe it does, coz i was told so.

stop asking me what i wanna be in the future. can i just reply you that i want to be a teacher to kindergarten children? obviously i cant. when i say im interested in m*asur*m*nt, dont say that its boring. coz im just telling you that i like what i do in school. dont assume i know whats the big picture of it is like.

in one simple sentence,you robbed me of my enthusiasium.

and i DREAD waking up every morning when i know i have nth to do in the office. other than three hours spent on site every other day, i feel like im wasting my precious life away. i suppose they also dont think that bringing me to see the same things everyday is useful to me.

obviously i wont make it sound like you are ill treating me. because i learnt some stuff. but somehow i managed to feel like im dispensable and you dont know what to do with me.

if only i could press the eject button now.

what am i supposed to do with the rest of the 8weeks?

even if i have nice photos to share and oh boy how excited im, just getting a short response kills me. we dont really share the same frequency but getting along is just fine..no depth.

headache. and sunburnt.

sneak preview.

thank goodness i went out with june,fil,iris on sat. they kept me really sane after the torture.

should i try asking again? i think im beaten already.

^s0rr|

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