Thursday, Jun. 25, 2009 - 12:08 a.m.

i were at a performance somewhere, along with a few friends. i saw matt Chin, John ng and probably a few more random people.

XL was there too.

the performance ended and i went backstage. XL was sitting there on a bench.

i skipped and sat down beside him.

i asked,"can i?" and i gestured to his arm. i wanted to hook his arm like how i hooked my dad's.

he looked at me and held my hand in his instead.

"I seldom say prayers for anyone. Today im going to say a prayer for my 男表妹.." he said.

i stared at him in mock anger and exclaimed,"what 男表妹?!"

he laughed and grinned with that cheeky smile. i laughed too.

"okie okie...today im saying a prayer for my 表妹 here......"

my alarm rang.

i turn off the alarm and tried to get back to that scene. i couldnt.

i woke up and got into the shower.
and i cried.

i cried and i cried and i cried.

i told my mum about it. she smiled when she heard what he said in my dreams. i thought to myself, thats so him. and i had to hide my tears from her.

i hafen been thinking about XL lately. but somehow i suppose he is somewhere in my mind.

and yes 5 yrs almost. ya i miss him.

^s0rr|

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